Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Can I withstand the siren call of the candy bar?

I have a small bag of snack size Snickers Bars in my kitchen. Leftover from tonight's YM/YW activity. I'm not sure how I ended up with them, but there they are. Taunting me.

For the record I already ate one. The wrapper is sitting here on the desk.

I really want to go have another.

But I know I shouldn't.

Then again, Nathan won't be home for another 4+ months, so I have time to pig out for a while before I have to get skinny before he comes home.

But I don't want to get fat.

I ran this morning, so maybe I can write off the extra calories.

But I ran this morning and I want it to count.

I'm not going to eat it.


And then I'm going to send all the extras to school with the kids tomorrow.


Today I totally and completely forgot a PTA meeting at the middle school. I'm like the president of the middle school PTA. Technically I'm the VP, but there is no P. And I forgot the meeting.

I was even at the middle school at the right time, but I was picking up Hannah from track practice and thinking about picking up Emily from Hula and getting to the Commissary before heading to the church, and the PTA didn't even cross my mind.

Whoops! I am losing it.

Maybe I should take those extra candy bars over to the ladies at the Middle School as a peace offering.


On the topic of my morning run... (see if I keep writing about my run, I am less likely to get up and eat each and every last one of those chocolate bars) this morning I saw my shadow for the first time. Not for the first time ever, but for the first time this spring during my run.

Most days I run early.

Back in January, when school started back up and I got back to my early morning run, it was completely dark. The stars were bright in the sky and I would watch the moon phases. Some days I would wonder if I really ran that morning or if it was a dream.

In about February it started to lighten up by the end of my run. Then it started to be lighter during my whole run, but the sun was still hiding behind the mountains.

Today, for the first time right at the end of my run, the sun was up above the eastern mountains (The Koolau Mountains?) and I saw my shadow for just a minute. The shadow that I love, with the reeeeeealllllly long legs.


I did not eat another Snickers. or is it Snicker in the singular? Either way, I'm not eating 'em. and I mean it.


Butterfly Wife said...

Good job on eating those Snickers. I am sure I would have had the bag finished before the post was posted. Yikes!

And you run sounds just lovely.

Mary said...

I'm impressed you didn't eat more Snickers. If something like that (i.e. anything sugary) is in the house, I seem to feel that it's my responsibility to finish them off. Probably why I gained instead of lost this week, wah!

Did you want to sing "Me and My Shadow" during your run? That's going to be stuck in my head.

And don't start getting forgetful. Since becoming Primary Pres, I seem to have little ability to remember anything (too many things to think about) and it drives me crazy how forgetful I've become!

nikko said...

Question for you... what do you do with your kids on your early morning runs? I'm assuming that it's early enough that they're still in bed? Or maybe you wait till they're all at school.

Good for you and the snickers. I would have had at least two or three.

Suzanne said...

You have more self-control than I do!

The meetings I always forget are the Parent Teacher Conferences for my kids. For some reason I just space them and then I sit up in bed in the middle of the night, and realize that I forgot to go that day.

It must be so hard living without Nathan. I'm glad that you only have to wait a few more months!

Deanne said...

What will power and strength!

Power - to withstand the siren call
Strength - to run every morning in the dark.

You amaze me! :)

wendy said...

nikko - I get up and run before the kids are awake. I wake them up when I get home. Next year Hannah will start going to seminary and I will lose my early run time. Unless I decide to get up even earlier....

Tori :) said...

Everytime I read y our blog I think "I really need to start running again..."

I really do.

Tori :) said...

If you send ME the Snickers I will sacrifice my body to save you. I will eat it for you.

No Cool Story said...

I also love the shadow with the really long legs! It makes me so happy :)
ITA with my twin Tori, when I read your blog i feel that I miss running.

I'll also eat a skicker(s) for you!

txmommy said...

wow, good for you.
I've been thinking about being a runner. Unfortunatly I've never ran..and I'm fluffy, and I hate pain...but I keep thinking about it.

muse said...

You can't expect to remember everything.
Get the candy out of the house, always harder to lose the weight.

Amanda said...

Good for you for not giving into the chocolatey temptation. I am afraid now that my chocolate fast is over that I will go back to my old ways of eating waaaaaay to much....

You are an inspiration, although I don't really love running. Right now I can blame my lame ankle for not being able to run. I can go really fast on the stationary bike though. ;)