I have a small bag of snack size Snickers Bars in my kitchen. Leftover from tonight's YM/YW activity. I'm not sure how I ended up with them, but there they are. Taunting me.
For the record I already ate one. The wrapper is sitting here on the desk.
I really want to go have another.
But I know I shouldn't.
Then again, Nathan won't be home for another 4+ months, so I have time to pig out for a while before I have to get skinny before he comes home.
But I don't want to get fat.
I ran this morning, so maybe I can write off the extra calories.
But I ran this morning and I want it to count.
I'm not going to eat it.
And then I'm going to send all the extras to school with the kids tomorrow.
Today I totally and completely forgot a PTA meeting at the middle school. I'm like the president of the middle school PTA. Technically I'm the VP, but there is no P. And I forgot the meeting.
I was even at the middle school at the right time, but I was picking up Hannah from track practice and thinking about picking up Emily from Hula and getting to the Commissary before heading to the church, and the PTA didn't even cross my mind.
Whoops! I am losing it.
Maybe I should take those extra candy bars over to the ladies at the Middle School as a peace offering.
On the topic of my morning run... (see if I keep writing about my run, I am less likely to get up and eat each and every last one of those chocolate bars) this morning I saw my shadow for the first time. Not for the first time ever, but for the first time this spring during my run.
Most days I run early.
Back in January, when school started back up and I got back to my early morning run, it was completely dark. The stars were bright in the sky and I would watch the moon phases. Some days I would wonder if I really ran that morning or if it was a dream.
In about February it started to lighten up by the end of my run. Then it started to be lighter during my whole run, but the sun was still hiding behind the mountains.
Today, for the first time right at the end of my run, the sun was up above the eastern mountains (The Koolau Mountains?) and I saw my shadow for just a minute. The shadow that I love, with the reeeeeealllllly long legs.
I did not eat another Snickers. or is it Snicker in the singular? Either way, I'm not eating 'em. and I mean it.