And I'm feeling a little blah...which may be because I'm lonely. Or maybe it's because I've been up since 3:30am, or maybe this is why:
#1 - Tonight I went to a nice little program to thank me and all the other *RAV's for our hard work. **(Readiness Assistance Volunteers, AKA Key Spouse, or FRG for the Army, or Ombudsman? for the Navy - which probably means nothing to you. It's kind of like Visiting Teaching, for all you Mo's. Basically it's a way to support those whose spouses are deployed, through phone calls, etc)
As I sat there munching on shrimp and flan I started to feel a wee bit guilty for neglecting my ladies. I call them every couple of months, and email them monthly, but that's it. I thought I would be doing more, but I don't mind that I'm not. Is that bad?
Most of their husbands will be home soon, and so far I've had brunch with one. Discussed going to lunch with another (never did.) Accidentally called one girl to talk about the extended deployment, but it turned out her husband was already home (whoopso) Delivered deployment packets to three. Went to one candle party, and once got Nathan's advice on the best way to put a mouse in a sticky trap out of it's misery for one girl. I feel like I should bake brownies or deliver flowers or something. But then I remember that I won't actually do that.... Waaa.
#2 reason to feel blah - remember the preschool decision? I decided to go with the cheap and easy neighborhood swap, instead of the more rigorous Joy School program. I thought I could avoid an embarrassing confrontation and let the Joy School girls down easy by saying "Thank you for inviting me, but I'm just not going to be able to do that right now." I didn't want to give too many details, but somehow this has resulted in a couple of phone calls and emails asking me if I'm okay, and letting me know that I always have a shoulder to cry on during these difficult times. Uh, okay...
I have a feeling they are worried that I am having a pre-deployment breakdown (which may or may not be true - I'll let you know later.) Nathan says I should just go with it, but I hate for them to think that I'm that poor helpless deployed spouse, you know.
#3 reason to feel blah - I have a fun blog idea, but I need a picture of ME (who else?) to make it work. And I know just which picture I want, but I don't know what has happened to all our family photos for the year. They are not longer in the My Pictures/2007 file. Where can they be? Did Nathan burn them to a CD? or file them in another folder? or are they saved over in our new hard drive? or are they lost? I may not know until October... Bummer!
So that's what's bumming me out. Just silly blah blah blog stuff.... Anything got you down this week? And, what do you do to pick yourself back up?
I can't and/or don't really want to do anything about those 3 items, but here's what I can do instead:
1st, I'll make myself a microwave s'more (one graham cracker broken in half. One marshmallow. 10 chocolate chips. Microwave 11 seconds. Yum. I may have 2)
Next I'll head to bed and get some SLEEP.
Then I'll get up early and go running.
And do laundry.
And clean the house.
And treat myself to a Taco Bell Bean Burrito(no onions).
I'll feel much better, guaranteed!
In fact (brushing graham cracker crumbs off my pajamas) I'm feeling better already...